are you serious? NO alto parts are up?

but i wanted to listen to them to see if i was good enough to submit a video… boo now i’m still scared.

my head is killing me. it’s been really hot during the past week. the headache started yesterday and i looked like a drug addict, desperately searching through all every single bag in our house to find some pain killers. i found one. it sort of helped. but now it’s today and i’ve been feeling really awful today as well, both because of the heat and the anxiety about tomorrow’s appointment.

there’s only old pain killers which i won’t take (expired in March this year) and one they gave my dad at the dentist’s, which could be Arcoxia (only “oxia” and 120mg are visible and i googled “strong pain killer” and got Arcoxia) but it’s supposed to be really strong and my dad has it because he had tooth surgery or something, so it’s for post-surgery pain and i think that could be stronger than what i have now so i’m afraid to take it and i won’t.

which means i’m going to bed and hoping it’s just me being tired of the heat and that i’ll fall asleep soon.

appointment in a location where i’ve never been before in sixteen and a half hours.

all fears present

not being on time. my embarrassment. her disbelief.