at least mine is one who probably understood i’m reading “Master & Margarita” because why would she have started acting crazily, as if the little sister of Behemoth?
… to the first five classes, anyway. i’m going to school for three classes, acting club and philosophy club.
now where are my priorities?
clearly not inside my head.
and so i start thinking if i even should go to school at all tomorrow.
but i need to go because there’s a test in History.
but i’m already not writing the book test on Bulgakov because i haven’t finished the book.
but it’s better if i have fewer things to do, so i should do the History test and get it over with.
but should i go to acting & philosophy afterwards?
probably not.
but if i don’t go to acting then they’ll all hate me, and if i don’t go to philosophy then i’ll hate me myself.
but school isn’t about “FUN!!” stuff, even if it’s this school, and if i don’t go to FIVE classes in the morning then i shouldn’t allow myself acting & philosophy. besides, i really should finish Bulgakov tomorrow, then, so i could do the test on Friday (or at least give him my book journal). hence, i shouldn’t go to acting & philosophy, but rather use the time wisely and read.
…!!!…
i’m going insane. i’m making myself insane. Bulgakov is making me insane. my school (or the senior year, to be precise) is making me insane. what if my Lit teacher sees me at school after his lesson? because seriously, sometimes it seems he knows all your insecurities and weak spots, he’s such a people reader. and the ones who usually skip classes (or do it more often than i do, at least) often bump into him afterwards. maybe i’ve just read too much Bulgakov for one day. i wonder how long it took him to write “The Master & Margarita”? it must’ve been pretty easy, if he was already (or still - i can’t remember if he quit) a drug addict - all the crazy scenes and delusions and stuff might’ve come to mind pretty easily.
lusghduergnrngkn
BUT I NEED TO DO THE HISTORY TEST!!!
and i just need to get away and no one understand why i’m being such a nervous idiot these days and i just wish they would because it would make everything so much easier. fuck.
